Post by rebecca jane wright on Jun 18, 2013 22:57:02 GMT -5
sex and white lies, handcuffs and alibis
[style= height: 25px; font-size: 13px; font-family: open sans condensed; text-align: center; text-transform: uppercase; color: #fff; background-color: #000000; padding-top: 15px; margin-top: 5px; padding-bottom: 6px; width: 200px; margin-bottom: 2px;]rebecca jane wright megan fox college sexual afraid of commitment [/style] | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,450,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: #efefef;] [style=padding: 10px; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 10px; height: 250px; overflow: auto; color: #1e1e1e;]i continue to sleep with random guys because i’m afraid of commitment. [/style]rebecca jane was born into a family that seemed perfect from the outside. her father is a big time lawyer and her mother was one of the best neurosurgeons in the country. ironically enough, her mother also died when she was twelve from a brain tumour, leaving both bec and her father extremely scarred and distraught. For about a year, rebbecca watched her father slip into this irrevocable state of depression. there was nothing she could do to fix or change it, and watching him deal with his heartbreak was initially enough to swear off commitment for the rest of her life. It only got worse though. at first, rebecca was happy for her father when he started bringing home women. and then she started to notice that he was bringing home different women every night. She usually just retreated to her room when he brought back another conquest, but the combination of herm others death and her fathers complete denial led her to the conclusion that relationships were not for her. Realistically, she's just terrified to commit. she's built these walls up so high that only someone with extreme patience and persistence would ever be able to truly know who she is. She doesn't allow people into her life on a personal or intimate level without testing them first. of course, she'd have a few friends. but very few. She needs reassurance and love, but it'll be a long time before she accepts that from just anyone. as far as friends go, she'll need people who don't mind her being distant at times. she'll need people who are entirely okay with her promiscuity and who really understand her inability to commit. people who have been there since her mother died, and people who have figured her out since then. Rebecca knows she's pretty, so she tries pretty hard to ween out the followers and the true companions. enemies would include anyones girlfriends or ex girlfriends. she has no boundaries when it comes to her one night stands, with the exception of her close friends relationships. so get at me! lovers is complicated but exciting. she'll have an array of hookups and one night stands, both male and female. but ultimately she'll need that one guy that truly gets it. the guy thats willing to look past her sexual history and actually see the girl on the inside who just really wants to be told that she doesn't have to hide forever, that he isn't going anywhere. It'll need to be someone who starts out a close friend, he could meet her recently or before her mom died. but it really does have to be someone who knows that she isn't really all sex and rock and roll, that she wants a family and someone to depend on just as much as any other girl. |
She lays her halo on the pillow where she sleeps